Summer School Blues

It has been so nice having a week and half off to relax and enjoy the peace and quiet. We are sending the twins to daycare though I have to say the agency that allows us to have free daycare might freak knowing I have been off for a week and half, but I figure I need a break from kids altogether! I mean I do feel a tad guilty getting something for free but hell how many people come into this country and get the red carpet treatment and I have to pay for things, I think I can have a break once in awhile. So, we've had them going to daycare cause we felt that if we stopped them from going it will be harder to for them to readjust and go back within 1 1/2 wks, not fair to them or to the babysitter; whom I might add is cool about things. I do feel guilty that I should be spending time with the kids, I mean this should be my bonding time with them but when you have twins, you need that break. Scott has been studying for his water treatment certification so the time he has away from the twins has given him the time to study which is what he needs to do. We spend a good quality time with them on the weekends and when we pick them up from day care, and I believe its good for them to learn how to be cared for by someone else as life as it is, Scott and I will have to work.

So, I start back at work in a few days and though I am grateful for the work, I am also dreading the heat and going back dealing with kids for 4hrs a day. I figure 4 wks I should be able to handle it and then I will have 3 wks off and then back to the regular grind again! I hope that things will begin to change soon for Scott, perhaps he can get his schooling under way and get his FASFA money in to help with bills, as unemployement will go down significantly come September. I sometimes long for the days when I was able to go spending on things that I wanted and not worry about anyone else, but those days are gone for a very long time; actually forever as you always put your kids in front of your needs first. I guess I am having the pre-summer time school blues, I just hope whomever i am teamed up with will not drop the ball and make me do all the work, I am tired of picking up for everyone else!!!

I am looking forward yet dreading our camping trip in July. It will be the first time we will have taken the twins out in God's country for a few days. I hope they dont damper the experience but enlighten us to new experiences. We got our new tent which is very nice, it's very big as it will sleep 8 people so we have plenty of room to move around with the kids. I dread the part of packing as we have so much to pack with two of them, I just hope it will be worth it and we will have new memories to place in our scrapbook that needs to be finished sometime soon :)

Well off to the gym I go, I am trying to lose the weight but it's been a battle since I have slipped so badly into past habits and I am not losing like I used to....so I need to readjust my thinking about eating and get my butt off the couch. I need to lose at least 30lbs before Xmas...I am giving myself plenty of time to do it, I am sure I can accomplish it if I can lose at least 5lbs per month! Wish me luck!

Praying they sleep for 2hrs

I never thought I would ever pray for children to nap for 2 hours, giving me the time to just sit down and read some emails or chat to a few friends. I used to think I knew what tired meant but boy was I wrong, today I know what tired means and it started the day the twins were born. This is my 3rd attempt to keep a blog and I am going to do my best to update at least once a week. Life thus far with twins has been interesting, we have gone from endless nights of waking up every 2 hrs to now sttn on most nights. My son Ricky has taken his first few steps alone the last couple of days, but then turns lazy when you want to try to get it on camera. McKenna is barely getting her teeth in, she is now got 2 teeth coming in at 14mths I hope she will get a full set of teeth by the time we take pictures in Kindergarten!

Time is flying by pretty quick now, being that it is June and we are preparing for our camping trip in July we are flying through 2010. Today, I have time to blog because the twins are down for the nap and I am alone with the kids since Scott is off doing Army Duty, boy I cannot wait till he is done with that nightmare! He is such a good help, I miss him when he is gone since my back seems go out everytme he goes away. I can say these kids are very lucky to have their dad, he is so involved with their lives and he gets in and lends a hand all the time. He is the best husband/father we can have and he is so missed when he does his weekend trips. I am dreading his two week drill cause it means me being with the kids by myself, not that it bothers me as I know what to do and stuff but that my back is so bad that I dread the pain I am in from doing the lifting and carrying. I just hope they are walking a bit so I dont have to pick up so much.

I guess with this time I have to reflect, I wish I wasnt in pain all the time, it reminds me of my mother whom was in pain all the time and her temper would flare as she was hurting...I hope I am not the same. It's funny how you can become your parents even though you do your best to be different, guess genetics sometimes takes over. I do my best and I hope the kids have fun with me just as they do when Daddy is around. We'll I guess I will end the blog right now as I need to think of things to blog to keep it interesting. But for now, this is my start....i think the kids are starting to wake up...at least they made it, 2 hrs!!!

Kelli